Never Felt Like THIS Before!

Ever since I met you,
my outlook has changed

I have known some others
But none who re-arrange

Can't tell what you're thinking

If you even CARE

Long to know you better
To see your UNDER-wear ...


~KIRK

The pain of everyday life is the very thing holding me back from all that I long for. Funny thing life ...mostly it is through the hurts and wounds provided by time that we even begin to see how things might make sense. Never thought I'd be back in the small town and living without friends, as it has turned out, but life is life ... and that b what I done got.

Every day now is a day that I long for the Big City and a life at least slightly resembling that which it is now. It feels like I am being punished for something. Why is that? Have my past actions, mistakes and on-purpose evils resulted in this big abyss that lays before me?

Can I right the wrong, whatever it may be, and recoup a little something? Am I stuck here in this puddle of shit and sorrow?

Hmm ... I have been so alone for the past eleven years, maybe even beyond. Will there be a reward, something I derive from this down time?

"Won't someone help me find my basket, and make me happy again ..." (A Tisket, A Tasket)