Most of my days start off very rocky. Speaking of which - I think Mom might truly be off her "rocker" now! One day last year she locked me out of the back door of the house only minutes after I had gone out the front door, to take out some garbage and survey the yard a bit. After gathering the newspaper from it's mail slot I decided to walk around a bit and then come back into the house via the back entrance - which actually looks like/and is often mistaken for the front entrance, though there is no driveway there, just lots of lawn! Well, the joke was on me, because when I got up the stairs, planning to come in and cut through the veranda, the door was not only suddenly closed, but locked! THAT FAST!!!!
She denies having done it ...
Often now she will accuse me of trying to drive HER crazy (FFS!) and calls me all kinds of variations on Satan ... but, as the Brits say, it's "bollox" anyway.
Mom is a classic case of DENIAL.
A classic case of what the doctor's call TRANSFERENCE, trying to make the one she is verbally abusing out to be the abuser, and I'm so not falling for it.
I feel sorry for her yes, but her long-standing stubborn, not listening to anybody, particularly anything I might have to offer as advice from my life experiences, is the big thing that is blocking her own HEALING ... So, after awhile, you feel less sorry, and just frustrated with what you're being put through also, and sad for the person doing it ...
As if ...
As if I would believe her: "I think you're losing it ...!"
Yeah, whatever Mom ... Go Grow Up(one of her favorite sayings ...always somebody else whom needs to grow up!) and deal with your fucking issues. It is about time now. First you blamed my absentee father for everything that didn't agree with you in life, then you blamed us, your kids, and the raising of three kids as a single mother ... In most recent times, you have taken to blaming me ...The ONLY CHILD OF YOURS WHO COMES TO HELP YOU, and see you!
Where is the fucking justice in THAT?!!!!
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